The Repeating Prayers, Help Please
No, this isn't about the repetition of the Hail Marys. Well, it sort of is, but I'm not talking about the 10 Hail Marys per decade manner of praying. You see, there is a problem that I have. But to start off, I want to say that I love praying the Rosary. I'm not here to condemn the beautiful prayer or anything.
My problem is this...as we all know, praying the Rosary in constant concentration can be a challenge. As for me, I stumble a lot, as in I pray some Hail Marys without understanding unintentionally. So what I do to make up for them is that I repeat the Hail Mary. In the end, I probably have prayed about 15 to 20 Hail Marys each decade.
There are times when I get extremely frustrated that the feeling of irritation at my self-advised repetition surges through my veins; hence, leaving me feeling that praying the Rosary is a burden. What should I do?
This is so hard along with the inside threat going in my head saying "If you don't repeat that Hail Mary, something bad will happen to you." or something like "Make it a sacrifice...for the poor, the sick..." And I get soooo (1,000...x) upset because the Rosary becomes an obligation instead of a prayer of free will, but I am convinced since I think that it's for the good of praying the Rosary well anyways.
But it's not just the Hail Mary. Same goes for the Our Father, Glory Be, etc. Last word: ugh.
P.S. I still want to pray the Rosary...but it's just this problem that diminishes that want. I don't know if my method is accurate for sacrifices or not, but it's (I'm just being truthful here) getting me down a lot.
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